i'm carrying a lot right now.
in the words of an overly sentimental pop song, the only kind of song i seem to listen to these days, you have to leave all your love and your longing behind. you can't carry it with you if you want to survive.
i heard this song a lot of times before i actually listened to the words.
but it's true. like jonah's whale love will swallow you whole. until you're stuck in the belly of the beast, with no way out.
and god can't help you.
you can't carry it with you if you want to survive. love is one more attachment. but it's not one i want to let go of. even though it is weighing me down. i'm sinking. actually, i already sunk.
the question is how to do it.